Too Much time

I am needing to release some of my thoughts that are floating around in this head of mine.
I seriously wish I could win the Lottery. I don’t buy lottery tickets though, so the next best thing: Radio money; ya know-when radio stations hands out free money. Just $1,000 I need. That isn’t asking too much. I want to pay off my debts ASAP. Which brings me to my next thought.

I feel my job is hanging on a thread. I haven’t done anything to get me fired. But with ALL the drama that has gone down, for reals!!! My position is not a two person job, yet there are two of us here doing it. I was here first so I should be the one to keep the job. I just keep praying that I will be able to stay here long enough to pay off what I have and to even stay after I have it all paid off. I need this job!! It pays me too well not to need it. But maybe I should start looking for a back up *cringe at the thought*

And finally, the reason I want to pay my debts off so fast. I am not going to go into too much detail but, A mission is still lurking on my mind. I have a friend who is on a mission. Every time I read her emails it makes me want to be out there serving! It is killing me right now that I am unable to just. . GO. . because of the debt.

“HURRY” is the ONLY word in my mind and IT WONT GO AWAY! For what reason? I wish I REALLY knew.